Missing Uploads, Where I’ve Been and How I’m Feeling

So. Where to begin. You may know that I usually post on my blog twice a week, on Mondays and Thursdays. You may also know that I missed both uploads last week. Or you may not have noticed… In any case, I thought I would use this opportunity to talk about why, and tell you a bit about what I’ve been getting up to lately. I don’t especially talk about myself and my life a great deal on this blog – aside from the occasional opinion post, like my post on Freedom of Speech. Because of that, I feel as if it’s less… personal? than say, my Twitter, because my personality doesn’t come through in things like review posts. And I kind of want to change that, and start writing less structured posts and more life update type posts like this. I am, however, in two minds about it because my life really is not interesting enough to do regular life updates and there is only so much one can convey through text. We’ll just see what happens.

Canary Wharf floral dress

Wow, would you look at that? Over a hundred words in and I haven’t addressed the main topic: the missing posts. I have not been posting because I felt very unwell at the start of last week. Though I did start feeling better towards the end of the week, I could not gather the motivation to sit down and write. I think it’s a combination of a lack of inspiration, not feeling entirely well  yet and constant awareness of the school work I have to do. So I’ve been stuck in a bit of a rut with my blog, and I guess the purpose of typing out my messy thoughts is to find out why and what I’m going to do about it.

I took the break in the hope that I would regain motivation and come up with some ideas for blog posts. I know there are so many posts I could do (like wish lists) that would take minimal effort but honestly, I don’t want to sacrifice quality for the sake of putting content out there and hitting that two-post-a-week goal. Though having said that, it is a bit of a shame because I’d been solidly meeting that goal since the start of the year now. But I don’t want to force myself to the extent that I start to detest blogging.

To address my second point, feeling ill has meant I’ve been sleeping a lot and to put it simply, my routine isn’t in the best shape. To put it into perspective, it’s 1.27AM on Sunday morning as I write this. But in fairness, I did wake up at 12PM… not that that’s a good thing either. I do appreciate a lie-in at the weekend but I always feel as if I’ve wasted the day away. I do want to focus on finding a happy medium, waking up earlier in the morning and going to sleep earlier. Preferably before midnight. Just because I’ve spent too much time on it this week, I have decided to take a break from social media too. Frankly, I’ve been feeling a bit sick of it and so I’ll be having a ‘digital detox’ this week, the results of which you can expect to see on here next Monday. The only posts you will see on my social media this week will be pre-scheduled (though I will respond to mentions post-detox!)

Canary Wharf floral dress

With regards to my third point, about school work… I’m in Year 12, for those that do not know. This is the first year of sixth form, and I understand it is meant to be a very enjoyable year which I agree, it is. However, I am keen to revise topics as I go rather than letting everything snowball and become unbearable next year. I’m doing Maths, Physics, Economics and Computing A Levels, EPQ and also studying for Further Maths AS in my own time. Though I wouldn’t say I get lots of homework, I feel as if there is always something I could be doing. So any moment I spend doing nothing is consumed with guilt that I ought to be doing something. I do enjoy studying and academics, by the way and I recognise that this stress is probably self-inflicted so please don’t feel obliged to sympathise with me.

There’s my little life-update. I had more to say than I thought I did but I hope this explains why I did not want to post last week and gave you a bit of an idea as to what is going on in my life outside of this blog. You might see more chatty posts on this blog in the near future – do let me know if you enjoy reading this style of post!


13 Replies to “Missing Uploads, Where I’ve Been and How I’m Feeling

  1. so sorry to hear you weren’t feeling well but I’m very happy to see you posting again. sometimes you just need a breather and that’s more than OK 🙂

  2. How stressful! Well done you! I just take a massive break from blogging and I hardly post and despite you being unwell you’re still committed by posting pre-scheduled blogs! I hope you become well and happy soon in sha Allah. Take your time and stay happy, Thankyou for updating us💕

  3. Really sorry to hear you’ve been unwell, I hope you feel better very soon. And I completely get you, “I don’t want to sacrifice quality for the sake of putting content out there and hitting that two-post-a-week goal.” I have reluctantly come to the same conclusion. Since the beginning of January I’ve been posting twice a week and while I like the routine, as other areas of my life have got busier, I’ve been feeling stressed about keeping up with blogging, which is not what it’s all about. I don’t want to post because I have to, that’s not why I started blogging in the first place. And I think you should definitely ease off the guilt, you’re absolutely right about wanting to enjoy sixth form. Your blog will still be here, as will those of us that follow you. Take time out and enjoy yourself, lovely, that’s more important than anything else. xx

    Lisa | http://www.lisasnotebook.com

  4. I hope you start to feel better soon! I totally agree it’s ok not to hit your target I mean I haven’t uploaded anything for a week because I’ve been focused on my exam. I also was at point where I didn’t want to upload something for the sake of it!!

  5. I’m the same way with sleep right now and it’s breaking my body down fast. I TOTALLY understand how you feel, but I’m happy to see you posting again because your content is amazing. Don’t feel pressure to post every week girl!

  6. I can relate so much right now. i missed last week’s blog post and I am struggling to keep up with all the other aspects of blogging too. I actually planned on doing dentistry originally at the start of the year, but gave up before I had even started because I have zero confidence and didn’t see the point in trying. I’ve now decided that even if I only have 5-6 months left now, I can still go out there and try and get as much work experience as possible… so that means less time for me to focus on my blog 🙁
    Aleeha xXx

  7. I hope you’re feeling better than before hun, it can get difficult when you try to keep up with everything. It’s always best to work at your pace.

    I love your fashion sense ☺️👌🏼

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